Monday, January 29, 2007 @ sob sob
UPDATES!!!
Finally i have the mood n have the time to update...alright, gonna start with last fri...last fri was esther bdae..n also she have BBq, which chua also have it on tat day...help esther with her Bbq stuff...den went to east coast..kuku...traffic jam, den the rain on n off...sianz....hmmm...doesnt really enjoy myself..also dunno why..maybe i dunno them well..went over to chua bbq pit..not alot of ppl went..dunno why...My weekends...haha...finally this is the first weekend i no need to work...shiok..slack at hm...hahahaha....MONmon blues~~~~Today, omg..tiring day...exam is coming..tml having auto cad test...fri having mtprac..sianz!!!haiz....i am so disappointed today..sob sob...not the first time..but alot of time he have disappoint me...the only thing he will do is to only sae sorry n nth else...haiz....did he ever stand in my position n think b4..haiz...is it i ask for too much?
Thursday, January 25, 2007 @ HAHA
HmMm....
tired!!!
eh...exam is coming and i am still playing..never even study anything yet...omg....die....
nvm...got to really study next week!!MUST!!!!DeTErMination!!!!!!
but seem like the determination n confident in my study has gone..how how how?got to find back in time...REAlli MUZ!!!Can someone help me find back???
Today pon CATS..hee..last lesson le...in the end accompanied dar dar..coz he is late for sch n dun feel like going to sch...kuku him..wake me up early in the morning to eat mac breakfast...topid me go drink milo...den i stomachache...after that we went watch movie..haha....the theatre nobody de..only got 5 ppl watching the show..first time watch a show with so little ppl inside...but the feeling is gd..kuku...when we went into the theatre..i saw someone sitting in the center of the sits..but dunn0 whether is a person or 'gHo**t'....scare me sia!!but in the end is a human!!so in conclusion is i scare myself....
Anyway, we watched "Happy birthday" this show..hmm...is a nice show...so romantic..sweet!cried dunno how many times....hahahaha....
after watching movie went play mahjong at dar hse..haha..den slept awhile..
finAlly!!!dar came my hse n see my daddy, mummy n bro...haha..what an to po!!!hahaha....actually, i also very worry that my mummy will be angry or theat him not gd..but is not as bad as we think...yeah!!!!!gdgdgd...*hAppY*wahahahahaha....actually is i force dar come up de..hahaha...which is a right choice...*wink*..heee....
have fencing attachment today..dun feel like going, so went dar play bball at colour court...in the end went back to sch for fencing coz gt so much problem..kuku..wat will repeat this mod. etc...kuku....in the end, go back also nth happen...wth....went hm at abt 10pm.tired!!
hahaha..today is the first day me n dar spent really the whold day together!!omg..cant believe it sia...heee...today is a haPPy day..if everyday can be like this hapy jiu hao..no need to worry so much..luv ya dar dar..gee...
HmM...tml going bbq at east coast..gonna celebrate chua n esther bdae...o.O...lau lo....i still long..heee....
Monday, January 22, 2007 @ Sob
hmMM....kuku desmond..have blog le nvr tell me...this kind of bro...Anyway, damn tired today..not enough slp...haiz...exam is comin and i am still not in the mood to study...omg..how?actually dar call me to go watch nyp vs np bball match but in the end nvr go...coz he wan to go play bball...then jiu nvr go...accompanied him eat his dinner...met only awhile only..HmMm....i also dunno why today i was angry or bu shuang or dissapointed in him..haiya...i dunno la....fan....felt like he also ren wo n ra wo..n i always very ren xing....hmm..am i??haiz...also nt understanding?haiz....do u have alot of things nvr tell me?i wonder? i really want to know...i dun wan like is i am the 1 everytime complaining but u didnt....did we drift away from each other?haiz...hMMmmMMMm....i also dunno.....but i juz noe tat i wun give up de....haiz....sian.....tml got to stay back in sch to do my math...sianz....ahhhhh........
Sunday, January 21, 2007 @
First thing for today...i have a new hair style for myself..heee....thank dear for accompanying me for 1 hour plus for cutting my hair..hahaha...To: bonBon a.k.a zhutoumei, u ah..like to bully me so much ah..when u see mi, u will noe wat i will do to u...blehx...alright, still got things nvr tell me ah...kuku....the next time i call u..u beta tell me..i will remember it de...no worries...be prepare on how u going to tell me..i give u time..okie?hee...blehx....n also dun think so much..we are not drifting away from each other...like now...are we.? no right? we are still able to noe what are we doing nowadays...Just that, or time doesnt match..understandable? i will be here for u always de!!!okie??must remember this always....hao bu hao...dun think so negatively....okie...miss ya lots...meet up soon!!!!dun worry so much that i have him...jus call me only..okie?he wun mind de...understand...u are also part of my life, which i cant afford to lose de...understand.....Ok....now abt my things...hhaha...today worked .so boring....omg..tml more worst..gonna work with a prevert guy...siao liao..dunno hw it will be like...gonna wear lots...haha..so he cant see anything...gonna stay a distance from him...seem like everyone is waiting how is tml like...LOL..so kuku..nvm..after tml..i am gonna to break for abt 3 week no need to work...OoHHh....hahahaha....r/s
Hmmmmm....so far so good...in my point of view...seem like my mummy is getting used to it...and seem like nt really objecting me n him..haha...*HaPPy*wahahaha..hope so is like this...*grInZ*
HMmm...he went pub today...haiz..doesnt really like him to go..but i have no choice but to let him go..coz he also have his circles of friends...i also cant control him...no choice but to ren lo....sianz...does he noes how i feel..hmmMm..wonder~?
Anyway, happy to be with him everytime we go out..lol..sure will have lots of laughter, but sometimes also will quarrel..normal??loL...heck~...happy jiu can liao...geee....
To: andy lau teck chye a.k.a ben nan ren a.k.a dear,
I know u will see my blog..dunno whether is it everyday or once in a blue moon..i dunno...anyway, if u see this...i will like to tell u...whenever we quarrel....haiz..i sure will cry...yin wei wo heng zai hu ni...plus ah...i very scare u angry u noe...if u raise voice at me i sure will cry de..understand..so cannot ah..Lol...n ah...also keep all ur promises ah...if nt u die!!!blehx!!!miss ya...
Thursday, January 18, 2007 @ sob
hmmm...what a boring week...sian....haiz....seem like everytime quarrel with him..is like my fault..haiz...i dunno what to do...sob...whenever quarrel i juz feel like crying.i dunno why..sob....haiz...
our problem is always the same....IS there any solution for it???haiz...hopely ba....nvr put in much hope...i try very hard to think of it..but in the end is still e same..haiz.....i also dunno how...what i should do? or i overdo it? Haiz....does he really go think abt it..how to solve it?does he? haiz...am i only the 1 putting effort in this r/s???haiz....but i feel is this way..how i wish he could express his feeling..and tell mi everything...how i wish....does he understand my feeling?haiz..
tml is np open house...from 18-20jan...o.O.....there will be lots of sec sch students...Oo..interesting....
Sunday, January 14, 2007 @ relief!!!
HEeX.....Felt so relief, After chatting with bon on phone. Really only can open to her only.....hee.....really miss her lotss....Msg to Bon, Tell u ah....u cant go find another jie!!!coz u most close to me lehz..how can u like tat...throw me away...cannot okie...gee....only i can open ur heart rite...can i say that....blehx....WAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA!!!!
Saturday, January 13, 2007 @ should i?
HmMm...quite long never update abt myself.alright, nth much happened actually. But slowly feel that i am drifting away from chua they all...is it i too sensitive or what? I dunno...Felt so lonely?Haiz...Work on weekend again..sianz....haiz...today after work met dar. Haiz...HmMm...Actually i tot of is that to test him whether he can stand me been very quiet...hai..but in the both of us like quarrel about it...just like what i tot...felt so wu zu....dunno what to do....felt that today he treat me very fierce. Sob....Maybe i too sensitive? Plus, how would he feel after he read this? think will be still the same...feel nth ba....AFter knowing him...i really cried more..haiz...will tend to think more..will tend to think more for him den myself...i also dun mind been scolded by mummy been with him..this is really the first time i am been like this? i changed?did i?Haiz.......suan le ba...............................................
Wednesday, January 10, 2007 @ ...
First thing i want to update is that, To Bon, Dun feel bad about it okie...i am alright...I am sorry that i also not with you when u are facing problem...Dun blame urself..hao bu hao...Smile!!! mIss Ya lotZ...meet up someday! Kkz...gee....Alright, shall update about myself..hmmM.....got back all my common test paper...didnt do very well for it..sianz...really got to study..cause only left 4 weeks left...Die......these few days nth happened....guai guai everyday go home early...SO that wun get scolded..lol....tml having my presentation on my cats....hmmm..dunno can anot..didnt prepare much....pray hard ba...LOl...
Monday, January 08, 2007 @ arGgGg...
My weekend!So boring...work again as usual.....ArgGg...kuku guy who shouted at me.....kns....is there a need to shout..cannot use a nicer tone meh....cum u also dunno what is happening jiu anyhow shout...kns.....HMmM....was thinking of stop working or change job...should i??Haiz..working is so boring...will meet diff kind of ppl...We have to learn to accept it...HMm...working at IMM outlet...gt to see alot of kids...so cute..hahaha....finally, tml i am getting my pay..wahahahaha....cant wait to take it..coz i am broke now!!!Eh....got back my common test paper...ah.....didnt do well for it....this sem really very slack...pon so many classes..SLP in class....not really in the mood to study..plus dunno what the hell the teacher is talking....catch no ball...How How How?????Can i remain at gpa 3 n above?hMmm....miss bon so much...got alot og thing to telll her...felt so xin ku..no one to talk to...keepin it to myself..i am gonna to die le la....ahhhhhhh......lucky gt this blog..so i can pour everything out.....gee......aaaaaaaaanow find that poly life is so boring...sian....seem like no life....weekdays study...weekend work..dun even have the time to go out with friends...sianz....more worst den sec sch....Kuku ben nan ren...dun be so sly....only entertain me 1 yr will die ah....lol..blehX....n also beta study ah....remember ah gpa2.5...hahahahhaa....if dun have..u die.....Finally, mummy bought a new tv for out living room...woOhOoo....if not everyday also watch the old spoiled tv...hee.....the tv will be delievered today....hahaha....
Sunday, January 07, 2007 @ Sob
Sob sOb....I cried again..I don't know why, just felt like crying...Haiz...still cant control my tears. Haiz....THere is nth i ask from u...like this is enough. Really...is enough, i wun ask for anything more...Hmmmm....seem like after knowing him i cried even more.Haiz..maybe is bcoz "wo tai zai hu ta le ba"....wondering whether is it worth it.??? Does he realli like mi like as i do? does he..??sometimes i wonder?Does he understand how i feel?Where is he when i really need him?haiz....whenever ask to this....he sure will sae i wu liao....i dunno why..haiz....wanting an ans from him is so difficult...Is it i ask for too much? Is it e problem lies with me?who can ans me??haiz....Loving someone is so difficult...i would rather be the 1 being loved...how i wish...SOb.....Think this yr '07 is like a hard yr for mi....family relationship wasnt gd..juz that everything dun goes well for me......haiz.....no one can help me...sob.....no one to talk to....haiz.....felt so lonely...
Thursday, January 04, 2007 @ heart pain
Hmm...created this blog, i felt that i really need a place for me to pour out everything in my heart. Cause i have no one to talk to.That is sad hur?Alright, Never mind. Is alright.Quite used to it.Ytd was first day of school, Omg...was damn tiring!! cause i very long never wake up so early!!!Early in the morning have a christmas cum bdae present from wei ting....hee...Thankz gal...Lucky class ended at 3pm...heee.....went n find my dear slack and have dinner.After that, he went play Bball, kuku him, while playing sprain his ankle...Se mO ah? DUno how to Take care of urself!!! Let me worry!!!Anyway, Today after sch, accompanied him went to see doc, lucky, nth much, IF nt ah..I also dunno how>?!HmmMm...I also dunno, i seem like quite dependent on dear le.how how how??My relationship with my mummy, hmmm...think is okie le ba...but i noe tat she is still very worry about me, but i will try very hard nt to let her worry!!! geee.....luv ya mummy!!!
Tuesday, January 02, 2007 @ hmmm
Now then i found out that ytd entry was really the 1st entry of this yr '07..lol...not bad hur..HmmMm....went to work today, daddy drove me to work..save alot of time for me...hee....Today worked with a guy call kian boon...hmm....was thinking whether he is easy going, or those very quiet guy...haha...in conclusion, he is a guy who is very talkative....we like chat for the whole day!!! Time passes quite fast for today, all thanks to him...ben nan ren came and fetch me.but he is Late...kuku...but nvm..i forgive u okie...heee....
Actually, got alot of things want to tell him..But i dunno how...hope he will see my blog..gee...
hmmm...actually want to say sorry to him, like always said those things...he should know what is it to make him feel sad.Forgive me ah.??Then also everytime bite him...Sorry alsoo ah!Then make him in difficult position...
And also..Thankz for everytime giving way to me...even is like my fault..hee....
This yr will treat u beta de okie....blehx!!!
You also muz treat mi beta hor!!!if not...u will know...
Hmmmm...my resolution for this yr '07
-able to spend more time with my family, especially my MUMMY!!!
-driving licences
-earn more MOney!
the rest....cant think of it now...
@ First entry
This will be my first entry for my new blog.Dont really want alot of people to know i have blog again.If not everything will goes all over again...Alright, This few days, everything is not going my way.Have been very stress and confusion. Don't know what i should do. So my mum could accept him.Haiz...Trying!!~~~Hope 1 day she can accept him...*wisH*!!!pRAy HArd!Hmmmm...seem like having cold war with my mummy, haiz...i Dont like this kind of feeling.It make me felt so stress and i dunno what to do to like stop it..hope everything will be back to normal soon!!!plZ~~~i am wondering....did i changed alot? i also dunno..my mum keep saying i changed.but i dunno what is it..haiz....Have been very stress staying at hm. But i cant help it. Seem like everything is so strange to me now.Seem like nobody cares abt me..All Alone..How i wish is like last time.Which i noe is impossible.Even how hard i try.i also cant gain their trust..I am a liar to them.sob sob...Does anyone understand me?i really doubt so...Trying to keep myself busy, so i wun think so much. But i still will think about it. Cant help it.haiz......How i wish someone will be always there for me~~*will he?*thInkIng?*
