Saturday, March 31, 2007 @ gathering
Today went dar hse to find him awhile, den went hm...cause was too bored at hm... also dunno why angry with him...anyway..sorry i treated u tat way....
Then in the evening went chinatown.. eh...dunno what is tat place called...to have our dinner...the food there was not bad...haha.. Today went out with suyi, wingyan, dor, weicai, jialiang, gary n peimeng...gd gathering...long time dun have this kind of gathering..haha... after dinner was about 10 plus...haha..went singapore river..haha...actually is boat quay le...haha...did nth much there..juz walked around...cause was very full..haha...
So kuku...keep walking..walk until MOS there...den took cab there...there is cab is hard to flag...diao... mi wing n cai share 1 cab...gee...reach hm abt 11 plus...
hmm..next week gonna have another gathering...o.O.....
Thursday, March 29, 2007 @ o.O
^^Does this pic look like me???hmmmmmmmmmmm~~~
Hey Hey...Today went out with dor dor, siying n bon...wooo...since a long time four of us went out like this...fun~...chat on lots n lots of stuffs! so funny n also crap...Went town today... haha...control myself not to buy things...haha...yea...successful...wahahaha..yippe....gee...
Omg...i am so fan...dunno hw to style my hair...sianz... how? can anyone tell mi how???lol...
Since a long time i have short hair..so not used to it...diao... all friends have lots of comments...but i accept it...mostly say long hair nicer...is it true leh??haha...anyway, just that everyone is not used to it...haha...In conclusion, hair will grow de...so no worries... I have my reason of cuttin short...geee....
Now have been watching anime....lol...ghost hunt...left last esp... cant wait...haha...nice nice...although, is quite scary...lol...now bon recommend mi watch tokmieki memorial~only love~...haha...is funny~think i found my hobby...watch anime...lol...
Hmmm...ytd went colour court with dar... see him play Bball...eh...no comments..haha...his sweat is so digusting~~~~PuKe*.....like jus bathe came out without using towel like tat...OMG*...
Msg to Bon....
Hey mei....Sorry i neglected u okie??? give mi time okie... although we being through so much during sec sch, but u are still my gd mei mei...realli...i nvr lie to u b4 okie??? geee.... got anything jus say okie...Even if sch starts we still will be contacting each other de okie...muz also still meet up okie....gee....n also out bet ah...for u gpa 3.5while for mi is 3.2...haha..remember ah...\
To C.D.E.F,
hey gal, u are true friends...gee...great sister... glad that i have u all...gee...
Wednesday, March 28, 2007 @ new look?
haha...is my new look???hmmm...nice??haha... so much different!!!haha....
Sunday, March 25, 2007 @ wahahaha
hmmm...today never work..cause they there is new stuff, they have to learn, so i no need to go work...so i off today...but not gd...no $$...sianz....boring..this mth pay is damn little...no $$ for me to spend..boring~~~
Hmmm...slept quite late ytd night, 4 plus den went to slp...cause was online chattin with someone...lol..since a very long time we chat...about 1 year... time passes so fast...lol...chat abt so many things...the pasts n etc...haha... doesnt means that once a couple break cant be friends!!haha...lol...remember ah...u owe mi a mEal!!!wahahahaha....hmm...thankz for telling me all the things i wan to know for so long...finally i got my ans to it...xie la~hahaha...
Cause ytd night sleep late.so today also woke up late...work up at abt 3 plus in the afternoon...cant really get to slp...i also dunno why...maybe i am worrie, abt him??hmm...nvm...have confident in him..geee....
eh..msg to andy, plz...go slim down ah..like half yr ago i noe u like tat...fit fit de...haha..okok....jia you ah...lol....
Friday, March 23, 2007 @ ROTTIN
BORING DAY!!!Rot at hm...mushrooms growing on my hair!!!sianz...Omg..i did nth to do...also dunno why suddenly nth to do....lol...nvm...also very long nvr slack at hm like this le..but is very tiring...diao...Starting to miss my dar dar~~~missing him~~~Alright, also nth much to update abt leh...haha....other day den update ba...gee...buai~
Thursday, March 22, 2007 @ TimeTable~
hmMM...today woke up dunno what to do... Woke up online awhile den went dar dar hse slack..haha...watch tv, use com n also eat..haha..today her mummy cook..first time eat...haha...not bad..is nice...geee....
Hmmm..felt happy today, also dunno why..long time dun have this kind of feeling le...gee...cherish him even more?hmmm...dunno...haha..who cares!lol!...Hmmm..wun get to see him for 4 days...sianz....but nvm la..still will see him next week de...lol...
Hmmm..Timetable is out...haha...tue no sch...actually no la....have sch...just that we haven do our IS enrollment...gee....hmmm...see the timetable..is like omg..why like that, so packed!!!kuku...sianz...but the gd thing is that mostly all the lesson starts at 9am..gee...fri is the most kuku one....lesson until 12 like tat den break until 4...jus to go tat 1 hr lesson..what the hell sia...kns...hmmm...lucky, i am still on the same track...gee...same class with most of the ppl~gee...but edmund n kenny isnt..sianz..haiz..why why why!!!kuku...MY BROS~~
Alright, is late...gonna be Zhu liao...orh orh lo~~~yawnz!!!
haiz...ytd quarrel with my mummy...seem like having cold war..when will it end? i wonder~boring~~~....but i still love her lotz!!!!Everything will be fine sOOn~
Tuesday, March 20, 2007 @ ton?
o.O...Ytd went sentosa with wingyan(bf), suyil...but in the end, the weather isnt good, it rain... so we just went into sentosa juz to bathe n changed...lol...After that, we wetn bugis..lol..shopping...bought myself a necklance..gee...hmmm... Then took neo print with them...since a long time we took..lol... around later afternoon brandon came find us also...walk around den headed to far east..tiring..whole day walking...diao...reach hm at abt 9 plus...
Around 11 plus, dar, brandon n suyi came my hse to ton..lol..first time friends came my hse to ton...lol...watched movie, ate mac den slack n den slp!hahaha...HmmMm...after this ton-ing..felt so weird..haiz... fan ah...sianz...They went off at about 9 plus...after they went off...lol...instant slp ah...damn tired!!!lol...slept until 5 plus wake up have my dinner...ahha...now leh..doing nth...slacking
hmmm...seem like mummy still cant accept him...why why why...haiz...so sad n depressed..whenever talk about this feel like crying..haiz...nvm...time is all we need~~~
hmMm...suddenly have the determination to save money... den in the future go overseas study~really hope i can...
Sunday, March 18, 2007 @ Work!
YawnZ....just woke up... ytd work with kian boon..hahaha...time past very fast... ytd was like playing not working...haha...kuku him...lol...
After work went hm...nth much happen...
later working again...boring...sianz...tiring!!!ahha...anyone free just drop by n chit chat with me...lol...working at IMM..gee...
r/s
hmmm...do gd so far? i guess so ba...
Missing him~~~~~~~o.OooOoo
Saturday, March 17, 2007 @ o.O...HAPPY!!!!Wahahahaha~
hMm....Cant express my feeling now...Also dunno what is going through my mind...lol...happY??worry???hmm..Really is dunno...feel grateful!?!!gee...
Thankz for giving both of us another chance...xie xie ni!!!
Lets gampatae nia!!! hao bu hao??
hmm...ytd evening went vivo city with weiting.. we went n watch movie. "The Messager". hmm..this show is alright... Not really very scary, is just the sound effects...lol...
After that, both of us so noob...haha..went to st james power hse...haha...went drinking...but nvr gt drunk. Cause only both of us gal...first time tried the tekila shot...lol...nth much..still alright for me..haha...not bad hur...improve!haha...
Today stay at hm slack...cause past few days have been going out... sian..tml got to work..boring~
Thursday, March 15, 2007 @ kan de kai?
HmmM....Thankz to 1 of my friend..who really nag at me n gave me advice...thankz alot!!! only true friend will say those " bu zhong ting de hua, yin wei ta men zhi dao ni hui ming bai, ying wei ta men guan xin ni"...THis is true!!!geee...
Actually i really should feel contented on we being like that... At least we are still friends...let nature take the course ba...if is urs..jiu shi urs ba...love cant be force de... even though wo hen she bu de....i also have to learn to let go...maybe by letting go..he may be happier unlike being with me...
Even though, wo kan kai le...i will not forget him...those memories we being through tgt, although is short... but i am really very happy...although, in times we might quarrel... But i am really glad i noe him... who let me realise so many things...also thought me things...n also changed my life...He will be deep down in my heart some where, which cant be removed...
(deep down in my heart...i really wish we still have the chance of being tgt again)***Praying every single day***cherish the 1 u luv..dun let them go so easily. If u let go while u still luv him/her, u will regret on ur decision.
loving someone might be difficult, but the process of in love is the happiest moment of ur life.
The hardest things is that u see ur love one is just beside u, but u cant give him/her the happiness.
falling in love is easy...letting go is hard...
Wednesday, March 14, 2007 @ bai se qing ren jie!!
hmM...today is my mummy bdae...HAppy bdae mUmmy!!!luv u!!!gee..
Today also gt my result...disappointed...haiz...gpa 2.24....drop like hell...forget it... i knew it will be like this... cause never study...
Today went kbox with bon n siying...omg..today the room was damn cold..freezing..Also saw yongboon...o.O...lol...
hmm...den went buy some paper stuffs den went back jp walk around...den went hm...Saw him at the interchange..was surprise to see him... i dunno how to react... haiz...i miss him lots... the feeling when i saw him is inexplainable...haiz...sad..she bu de...feel like chat with him more also cannot...Dunno why..saw him for juz one glance... i felt so sad...cried*...sob...Sob...
cuiping be strong!!!
Tuesday, March 13, 2007 @ hmmm
hmmm...Ytd went vivo city with wingyan n suyi..since a long time we meet up...Intended to watch movie..seem like there is not much movie to watch..so in the end, we nvr watch...we went walk around...n have our dinner...bought a top today again..omg..i keep spending money...gonna be broke soon....ahhhh.....sianz....After that, went wingyan hse to drink...cause was quite upset... so just drank lo..but nvr got drunk..went home alone after that...
Have lots of advices from friends...only thing i can do is zhou yi bu suan yi bu...
Monday, March 12, 2007 @ Lost love~~
"Seems like just yesterday, you were a part of me. I used to stand so tall, I used to be so strong; your arms around me tight, everything felt so right - unbreakable, like nothing could go wrong. Now I can’t breathe. No, I can’t sleep; I’m barely hanging on. Here I am, once again, I’m torn into pieces. Can’t deny it, can’t pretend, just thought you were the one. Broken up, deep inside, but you won’t get to see the tears I cry."
"I wish I was a little girl again, because scraped knees are easier to heal than a broken heart."
"They say that time can mend a broken heart and fix you up, but I know that my life wouldn't be the same again without you being around."
"Like a rose wilting and dying, so feels my heart. You trampled the most fragile thing in my body, and didn't even know it. I thought you felt the same as me; you smiled, touched my arm, stood up for me. My spirits were lifted. This was the first time anyone did this, and for a time I felt beautiful because you made me. I never wanted to leave your side; I was afraid to lose you, but then reality hit me - you never felt the same, I had been floating on a fake cloud. You trampled my heart and didn't even know it."
@ HaPpy!!!
Hmmm...woke up about the same time 12 plus in the afternoon...Woke up saw his msg..o.O...happy..also dunno how to explain the feeling..hahaha....After a long hr of msging, Finally, we met..omg...i miss him so much...haha...even though, we only met awhile..but at least i saw him... which let mi relief...cause was everytime wondering how is he doing...is he fine n everything...Hmmm....heng..today i am strong enough, nvr cry in front of him...waahhaa...cUi Ping Gampatae!!!hee
Sunday, March 11, 2007 @
Haiz..having headache again... But i cant get to sleep... Dunno why???haiz...
I can do anything but sigh n cry... I do not know what else i can do... Just pray that you can come back to me...sob... I never have this feeling before... Been so hurt... Lost... haiz... If in the first place i know is this kind of feeling, i wun not have let u go...sob...
i cant help it but to miss u..tat is all i can do...i will remember what u told mi b4..
i am gettin weaker n weaker...isnt like the cuiping last time..not as strong n confident as b4...
WaIting~~~~~~~~~~
"Hope is all I have inside, for my true feelings I'm trying to hide. Tears fall like rain, hope is all that keeps me sane."
Anyway, to went geylang de wu zhao pai resturant have my dinner..to celebrate my mummy bdae in advance...o.o...the food is nice...recommanded!....
After that went IMM with family, bro want to buy boxes to puts his things...Den went hm...
tml gonna be a boring day for mi i guess...alone~
Saturday, March 10, 2007 @ Memories~ i will nvr forget.~
@ LOST
o.O...just woke up...Was too tired ytd...haiz...
Just cant forget abt ytd...sob sob...
Hmmm...find Christina Aguilera HURT very nice...very meaningful
Seems like it was yesterday
When I saw your face
You told me how proud you were
But I walked away
If only I knewWhat I know today (Ooh, ooh)
I would hold you in my arms
I would take the pain away
Thank you for all you’ve done
Forgive all your mistakes
There’s nothingI wouldn’t do
To hear your voice again
Sometimes I wanna call you
But I know you won’t be there
(Ooh) I’m sorry for
Blaming you
For everythingI just couldn’t do
And I’ve hurt myself
By hurting you
Some days I feel broke inside
But I won’t admit
Sometimes I just wanna hide
Cause it’s you I miss
And it’s so hard to say goodbye
When it comes to this
Would you tell me I was wrong
Would you help me understand
Are you lookin’ down upon me
Are you proud of who I am
There’s nothing I wouldn’t do
To have just one more chance
To look into your eyes
And see you looking back
(Ooh) I’m sorry for
Blaming you
For everything
I just couldn’t do
And I’ve hurt myself
(ooh)If I had just one more day
I would tell you how much that I’ve missed you since you’ve been away
Ooh)It’s dangerous
It’s so out of line
To try and turn back time
I’m sorry forBlaming you
For everythingI just couldn’t do
And I’ve hurt myselfBy hurting you
hMm...gonna go out eat to celebrate my mummy coming bdae on mar 14...hmm...still dunno what to buy for her...
hMmm....i have come to a conclusion...I am gonna wait!!!
"Don't ever give up if you still want to try, don't ever wipe your tears if you still want to cry. Don't ever settle for an answer if you still want to know. Don't ever say you don't love him if you can't let him go."
To Andy,
"You taught me how to love; you taught me how to live; you taught me how to laugh; you taught me how to cry, but when you left, you forgot to teach me how to forget you."
"Remember me when you are gone, far to the beyond, away from me. A journey I cannot go with you on, even though you are going for good. I have tried for tears not to fall from my eyes. Keep alive the beautiful times we share, and take it to heart that my love for you is ever sure. Remember me. Oh, remember me, for memory may fade but they never die."
"Searching for answers.
But they're all so hard to find.
Cuz I'm still loving you,
Are you still loving me?
don't you turn and close the door,
Is it you don't love me anymore?"
Friday, March 09, 2007 @ Sad
Didnt sleep for the whole night, cant get to slp. I dunno why... Finally today met him for the last time. LAST Time....Dunno when will i get the chance to see him again... Deep down in my heart i know i still luv him lots...Maybe this is the beta choice for both of us...I have to still continue on with my life. although i know i will miss him alot... N alot of changes n habit have to change...cant keep msging him , cant call him often. cant call him out. HAve to adapt to a new life again...Everything have changed... All this is like a dream... a wonderful dream. allows me to met a guy i really luv. whom i nvr regret been with. A guy who let mi happy,lots of laughter , let mi sad, cry...I will always remember the time we have together. I will remember the happy moment we have together. Xie xie ni...
"I cry because I know he doesn't feel the way I do. I cry because I think of how pathetic I am, and I cry because I think I'll be crying forever."
@ Sad
Didnt sleep for the whole night, cant get to slp. I dunno why... Finally today met him for the last time. LAST Time....Dunno when will i get the chance to see him again... Deep down in my heart i know i still luv him lots...Maybe this is the beta choice for both of us...I have to still continue on with my life. although i know i will miss him alot... N alot of changes n habit have to change...cant keep msging him , cant call him often. cant call him out. HAve to adapt to a new life again...Everything have changed... All this is like a dream... a wonderful dream. allows me to met a guy i really luv. whom i nvr regret been with. A guy who let mi happy,lots of laughter , let mi sad, cry...I will always remember the time we have together. I will remember the happy moment we have together. Xie xie ni...
"I cry because I know he doesn't feel the way I do. I cry because I think of how pathetic I am, and I cry because I think I'll be crying forever."
@ broke up
Today is the day which i broke up with andy...hao bu she de, ke hi hai shi yao zhe yang...
He wun understand how i feel...
how much tears i drop for him...
how much i love him...
how much i cherish this r/s, n is gone like this....SOB SOB....
WO HAO BU SHE DE!!!!
CRying like hell....
iT hurt so much!!!!
luv someone is so difficult...
HURT DEEPly!!
The story ends like this.
Tuesday, March 06, 2007 @
haha...today went out with hui fen...long time nvr go out with her...so many things to catch up with..hahaha...At first both of us dun feel like going to too far...haha..in the end, we went bugis. cause we are jus to bored..haha...went shopping..o.O..haha...spent nearly $100 today...eh...diao...got to save!!!haha...Took neo print today..eh..too long nvr take le..den dunno wat pose sia...haha...so kuku...so funny...den found out that gt so many diff pattern le...hahaha...fun! i like the 1st pic...wahahaha....HmMm...tml going out with dar..hope he wun let mi shi wang ba....*Pray hard!!!. "Happiness is not found at the end of the road, it is experienced along the way. So take not for granted each moment of your life and you will find a reason to be happy each day."
Monday, March 05, 2007 @ Corner* with love
Changed a new blogskin...long time nvr change le...hmm...watched Corner with love, by xiao zhu n da s....is a nice show...gee...like the songs in it...wahahaha... n also hua yang shao nai shao nu...hmmm...not a gd ending...dun like...HmMmm....did nth to do today..so bored...omg..kuku thing happened today...my hp got cut off...cause i nvr play bill...hee...keep forgetting..kuku...nvm..at least now is back...*wiNk..
@ Unbelieveable.
Unbelieveable!
This story starts 6 months ago, with just a call. Is just so unbelieveable, With just a call will get to know someone whom she never thought she will be with. Everything just happened so fast. Is so amazing. Without know how the person look like and even do not know how is he like. They could message and even chat on phone. Surprisingly? If is not with that call, ben nu ren might never get to know ben nan ren. All thanks to her friend.
Alot of things happened during tat time. Ben nu ren still can handle it. But once ben nu ren step into her life. everything changes.
A week past after chatting on phone, Finally, the chance have came. Ben nu ren was going sentosa with her friends. Such a coincidence, ben nan ren and friends also going too. That day weather wasn't good, it rain. But they are still able to go.
(After got to know ben nan ren, Actually ben nan ren just go to sentosa to see ben nu ren whether she is pretty or not. Cause he is just curious about her looks, due to her friends comments)
Finally, they met. Both of them do not know what to say to each other. Is just so strange. The feeling is like "oh... This is the guy/girl i having been messaging."
They just past their day at sentosa having fun, but do not have a chance to sit down and have a good chat.
Since after that day, both of them still continues to message each other. Slowly, ben nu ren starts to have feeling for him. So she called him go to her friend's chalet. Singapore is just so small. He also knows her friend's. So ben nan ren brought his friends came along.
During the chalet, both of them never care about each other, just entertain their own friends. Until after awhile, both of them started to chat and have fun for the whole night with all the other friends. The chalet was boring.
During that time, ben nan ren treats ben nu ren very good. Also don't know why. The feeling that ben nu ren have for him starts to grew stronger.
The day after chalet, both of them went out for the first time. Everything just started like this.
During this period of time, ben nan ren treats ben nu ren very good. Although, he treats her well. But ben nu ren still doesn't trust him. Cause she have been hurted lots of times, and scare that he will did it to her also.Scare to step into another relationship. After a period of time, ben nu ren took the courage. Finally, she accepted him. She herself also don't know what is the reason behind it to accept him.
Ben nu ren knows that both of them character are very different. Have no common interest. But she is just willing to try it out and make things work out.
The differences
(ben nan ren is a very insensitive guy. Not a romantic guy. No initiative. Just don't know what to do basically. Which in chinese is called " ai qing bai chi".)
(While ben nu ren is a very sensitive girl, emotional girl. needs lots of care and concern. Will be demanding sometimes. No confident in herself. Tend to think alot.)
The girl parents knew she was with this guy. They objected. Even pressure her to break up with him. Ben nu ren do not know what to do. But to use time to prove it. Friends was also surprised that ben nu ren will accept him. Cause in the past, Ben nu ren standard for guys is very high. Suddenly, it dropped so much. They don't understand why. Ben nu ren herself also don't know why.
Everything went smoothly. Ben nu ren thought that he will not hurt her like last time those guys who did it to her. She was wrong. Everything wasn't what she thinks. She was hurt deeply. Was depressed.Don't what to do. She just kept crying. At that period of time, both of them kept quarrelling.
(ben nu ren knows that she really loves ben nan ren alot. This is the first time she loves a guy so much. Willing to do so much things for him. But she don't know whether it is worth it. All she wants is just his care and concern.)
"He may not be the most attractive, he may not say all the right words, but when you see him, you know he's the one that can make you smile, laugh, and cry all at the same time."
To be continue~~~
Sunday, March 04, 2007 @ Just follow law
HmMm....today morning went k box with chee wei..eh...first time go k box with a guy...erm..very weird...den never go out with him b4..den feel very weird..dunno what to say...Too long nvr go sing...den i also dunno why...my singing today very weird..dunno is bcoz he is there or wat la..dunno....AFter that, went dar dar hse slack....den went hm eat steamboat...nice nice...gee..ate until very full...Since a long time, whold family go watch movie..omg...really is damn long...haha...today surprisingly...i juz asked..everyone agreed..haha...went to watch "Just Follow LAw"...haha...is a nice show...worth watching...gee....
"Whenever life seems to drift you away from me, I can't help but cry. You've grown to be such a part of me that without you life is no more than a desperate sigh. They do say love comes and goes, and to that I disagree. So, here's my hand, take it and don't let go of me."
Saturday, March 03, 2007 @ hmmm
hmmm....i also dunno what is going on with my life now!!!All messed up...haiz....dunno when will be back to normal...i hope it will be soon...haiz....my r/s...i also dunno what happened...suddenly happen to know something which i been hiding from mi for abt months...haiz..how would i not sad n hurt? Worry about so many things...where is my confident i used to have?? where have it gone... Friends all said i changed...haiz...not like last time so straight forward...noe become so po ma....eh....actually is true...ppl will change ba...My mood is beta then the past few days....thanks for all the friends who are there for me....especially bon mei mei....Xie xie ni....luv ya...miss ya...loving someone is so difficult....being love is beta, more xin fu...how i wish!!!
Think all the trust i gain,is all gone...gonna start all over again...Pray hard..i can overcome this problem....haiz...sob sob...i tot i have found someone who wun not hurt me like those guys to did to me..seem like i am wrong...haiz...why am i always the one been hurted...heart pain...sob sob...."Winning your heart is like winning the lottery; I never know when I'm going to win it, but I know I've got to keep on trying."
"I wish I could see through your eyes so I would know what you like to see. I wish I knew your wishes, so I could give you everything you want. I wish I dreamed the same dreams you do, and together we could make them come true. I wish I knew what makes you happy, so I could make you the happiest person in the whole world. And lastly, I wish I were a cell in your blood, so I would be sure I was somewhere in your heart."
"Maybe the reason why I haven't found who I've been searching for is because I know that I've already found him. It's just up to him to say whether I am who he has been waiting for.."
Friday, March 02, 2007 @ haiz
"I never knew I could feel so much pain, and yet be so in love with the person causing it."
"You knew I loved you. You knew I cared. Then, why when I needed you, you were never there?"
"I don't know anymore because every time I ask you a question that requires your heart ... you turn away leaving me in the dark."
